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tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Friday, July 28, 2006
3:44 PM

"Goodbye miss wang come back soon"

that's the msg that one of my tuition girl put on her msn..

it brought tears.. tears of joy..
at least i know i am not a unwelcomed teacher.
i confirmed that i shouldn't go into teaching as as starting career. I may
consider the career few years further down the road when i am more settled.

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Thursday, July 27, 2006
12:24 AM

today might be the last time i meet my upper sec class in tiong bahru. sunday will be the last time to meet the lower sec. A bit of reluctance, but i have to let go. This is selfish, i know. Evan taught well enough for the first day. Hope they will accept him and not run away. They asked if i am going back, i dunno how to reply. I said, "maybe, maybe not. Depends on my work"
Children will adapt to changes very fast. Because of my presence today that's why they are defiant to Evan. Next week should be more peaceful. Evan looks good in office suite. Not like the 'boy' i saw the first time he came. I tot he was a student back then. Haha.. Christopher din dare to talk to Evan, he said a male and female teacher are different. Come on boy, it's a matter of getting use to. Qian Qi the usual big bully, she is very bubbly, only that she has to learn to be more tactful. Felix gotta be less critical of unnecessary stuff. Shazanna should work harder and participate more actively to learn more. Madeline the sweet girl. Mark should keep up the good spirits. Many more in the class, i din mention, good luck.
Just now, i was on MSN with Timmy from Sec 2 class. He is such a funny boy. He ask if he can call me by name, then started writing rubbish.. spamming me.. send me all the winks. The first he sent was the kiss... i got a shock when i saw the lips.. (WZNN not online, so not expecting it mahz). Then before the boy go to sleep, he sent a heart.. Haha.. learning how to use huh... make use of this old woman here. He thought i was the serious type till i proved him worng just now. Hahahaha...
Bedtime.. tata

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Friday, July 21, 2006
11:17 PM

today i made the first buffer by myself in the lab.. chey.. u say.. true lah..nothing special..

i calculated the molarity and amount to be used under the guidance of xiaoling. When i added in the water, the powder could not dissolve! instead it became as hard as rock.. i was stirring and shaking the solution for one whole hour before everything settled down and dissolved. I left it there. that's all that i did today.. haha.. nothing great.

Mon i will do try-outs of teh techniques on most probably kiwi.. gotta rem to buy on sun.. hmm..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Wednesday, July 19, 2006
11:38 AM

Amide the busy days of doing tonns and tonns of readings, i managed to find a day free to go out. Monday night, i went bedok tuition, afterwhich WZNN's dad says go and fetch me from work. They came all the way from newton just to fetch me. so paiseh... i wanted to go home on my own, but his dad insisted. so paiseh!! his mum even gave me one of the po-luo-bao as she keep thinking that i haven't had my dinner... haha... i ate already lor...

the next day, i went MMI with WZNN and his parents for WZNN's checkup. I tot i would be able to get some work done in scho while i wait for their appt to be done so i brough along the laptop. Who knows, i wasn't allow to bring up my lap top and thu si could only do some paper reading. Anyway, after the appt, WZNN went back to camp while i went shopping with his parents. We went to quite a number of places... great world city,

chinatown and then bugis. His mum bought me a 4-leaf clover handphone chain. It's very sweet and nice. Thanks auntie!!

After tying the strings at bugis, we went back to fetch WZNN from camp.
Since it was his dad's birthday yesterday, we went thai express for dinner. (he has a membership card which gives him $25 discount on birthday..) I called up sir and told him that i would be late for tkd training.

After dinner, WZNN sent me home for my tkd while his parents continued to do more shopping. Tkd that night was nice.. i got to do some light sparring. Haha.... and now i have 2 more poom belt. But i dunno if they will join us to train... most prob not.. still young...

tonight ket and evan will go for inteview at stalford. hope they can pass and can take over my classes... i wonder how about my bedok class... chia how ahhh.....
Alright.. gotta go back to my work.. now i am in the lab..

poor xiaoling ( my senior in lab) she emailed me so many times, but i din check the mail.. haha... now still waiting for her to come.. my mistake.. maybe go makan 1st.. hungry le....

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Monday, July 17, 2006
9:42 AM

It's here once again.. and i am short of one module.. the more modules you have done before, the worse it gets as u will start rejecting modules of similar nature and that leaves u with nothing to choose from.
Wonder what should i take for UE? unrestricted electives.. but still very restricted!!!! *&^%$#@!

..........................Thinking...............................

I managed to catch pirates of the caribbean last fri eve with wznn and my sisters. It was a nice show!! I didn't watch part one, so i was kinda blur thru the show.. haha.. after the show sis explained to me and finally i saw the whole story line.. muahaha... What i enjoyed thru the show was the effect and humour.. it was super funny especially when they are at the man-eating native island.

Is this the last show for yr2006?? hmm...still thinking....

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Friday, July 14, 2006
12:09 PM

Long afternoon being alone after the dentist. So disturbed by the swollen cheeks that i can't concentrate on my readings..
So disturbed....

In the evening, everyone had a good look at my swollen face and I purposely disgust them by allowing blood and saliva to flow out into the plastic bag of tissue and cotton. Wen zai nui nai came after work. We went for his session with the Chinese physician. He had acute puncture on his tummy and shine area. After the needles, he received the sucker tube treatment. Doc says he has rheumatism and weak bones.. haha.. more calcium and more swimming.. yay… now we can go swimming together, time to buy a new swimsuit officially. When he tried to stand, the pain on his back still persist, doc then decided to poke another needle…. Scary one…. Right in the middle between nose and upper lips. The most painful area, the one which we press to wake up a person who had lost conscious. I held his hands as the doc push the needle in. I saw the pain as he tensed up and tears rolling in his eyes. After the “ordeal”, we went home, feeling better.

I was supposed to have porridge with soy sauce that night. WZNN ate seafood soup with rice. I was in pain but could not eat my painkiller unless I eat, but I really do not feel like chewing. So I refused to eat. Despite all the sweet talking, WZNN couldn’t get me to open my mouth to eat. So he went the hard way. He chews up the meat, rice, porridge, tofu and fish. Then he place on a soup spoon from which he force me to eat with a teaspoon. He carefully chews up the food, removing any fats from meat, skin from fish and hard rice before feeding me. I cry as I eat.. no, it wasn’t the pain. It was the feeling.. a special feeling. I saw and felt the care and tenderness in him blending the food so carefully. After 2 spoonfuls, I stopped as I dun feel like eating. “Eat some more, cannot eat only 2 spoon” I shook my head like a child. He frowns and picked up the teaspoon and started feeding me. After half hour, I finally finished another 2 spoonful which makes him feel satisfied that it is an ok amount for dinner. He finished the remaining food and clears the table.

I ate my medicine and felt better eventually. Thank you WZNN. Hahaha… he coming over to visit me after work later.

Feeling better!! haha... can smile lohz...
But still the swollen cheek!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Wisdom tooth again.. I took out #3. yesterday Haha.. more scary this time. More drilling and stitches even. Previously I didn’t need any stitches.

I arrive at the dentist on the dot 2pm on 13th July ‘06. Before I could sit and relax, I was ushered into the room. First, the dentist examined my tooth visually. I told him I wanted 2 teeth to be out but he rejected as it would mean difficulty in eating and having good rest for many days. This was followed by an x ray which took less than a minute. After tying up my hair while the dentist have a look at my x ray and the nurse placing a bib on me, I lay down on the blue chair which looks less intimidating than those old brown ones.

Here we go. A total of 3 shots of anesthetic were given. I felt it going through my left cheeks, going along the lower gum and I am not too sure for the last shot. After a minute of wait, I was numbed from left ear to left side of my lips. How I was it was a GA (general anesthesia)!

A sucking tube was inserted to get my saliva and blood out of the way controlled by the nurse. I saw the first equipment – tiny scalpel, much smaller than the one we use in lab. I felt him cutting my gum around the teeth (of course no pain). I was scaring myself... I thought of the blood spurting and oozing out just like the time that I cut the frog. I close my eyes, clasped my fingers around my pink wallet and tried to think of something nice while hypnotizing myself to further numb my whole face. (MST- mental skill training- a benefit from attending coaching course)
My mouth was pulled to the maximum; I thought my lips were going to give way anytime. It was hard to reach inside. My stomach squirms and tensed up as I heard the drill. The dentist kept me informed of the happenings in my oral cavity, “some drilling ya.” “ urhhhhh…” that’s all I can manage.

Drilling.. drilling.. more drilling…. Change of drill to a long and straight one. Drilling, drilling and more drilling. My ear itched from the vibrations. Haha.. wanted to scratch my ear…
All of the sudden, no more drilling, I could only heard the sucking sound of the sucker. I saw the tweezers. “A bit of cracking sound ya.” I heard the dentist’s assuring voice/. “crack.. piaz..” I felt a bit of tearing very much to tearing not fully cooked chicken meat off the bones. Oooh… after 4 times, “the tooth is out” I heard.

“Whew..” I said in my mind. I thought that’s it. I am fine.. a bit of rest should be enough. My lips were as dry as can be, but the back of my knees were wet from perspiration. A piece of cotton was placed in my mouth, “a moment of rest and we will stitch up ok.”

STITCH!!! Goodness, I simply keep ,my eyes shut while I rest trying to remove my mind from a needle weaving in and out of my mouth. However, curiosity took the better of me. As I felt the dentist approaching, I open my eyes and saw the bloody cotton being

removed and removal of the ‘sewing kit’ from its wrapper. It wasn’t a straight sewing needle, more like a fish hook! Fainted**
4 or 5 stitches… I think… not sure as I took peeks between each stitch to see if he was done sewing up. One of the moves, I felt the pain.. just like an ant bite as the needle went through the back of gum.

“ok! Done” Finally.. I was lifted to sitting position and lowered nearer to the ground. 5 days later I will return to remove the stitches. 400 bucks.
I kept my mouth as tightly shut as I could to prevent saliva from flowing out, but the worse thing that could ever happen, I hiccup! Haha.. luckily nothing disgusting flow out. I took 119 and went home. Daddy offered to fetch me, but I was already on my way home.

Immediately after the extraction

The stiches

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Thursday, July 13, 2006
6:52 AM

finally miss ruby agree to let me go. But first a teacher taking over has to be found.. rather 2 or more teachers. The 5 classes, 1 at bedok, 4 at tiong bahru need teachers.
I need one or two teachers to take my tiong bahru sec 1 and 2 students plus sec 3 and 4 bio students. Another teacher to take my bedok sec 3 bio students.

i know they would find a better teacher than me, at least i hope.

Miss ruby will not try hard to help me find replacement and i can only leave after a replacement is found. Therefore, i will find on my own. At least i would somewhat know the person taking charge of my students. As naughty they are, but they are still my students, at least at this very moment.

Well, i hope marcus and chia how can come up with some ideas to help me. Thanks guys.
Thanks to huijing who is helping me to prepare the notes for lesson now. =)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Monday, July 10, 2006
9:46 AM

It was a busy week!

1. i managed to clear all the readings for my project, now my task is to arrange them in a comprehensive manner and present to Prof and discuss the feasibility of the project.

2. i finished the ncap course.. woahaha!! Meagforce sent a total of 9 of us down for the course: Joson, Kenji, Sylvia, Mingli, Jac, Huat, Daniel, Wen zai nui nai and me. I hope all of us can pass... if i pass, i will get my full coaching level one cert! i hope i do.. the examiner didn'e make any remarks when i conducted my class.. so i guess should be ok ba...

3. Binny (my gerbil) fell sick, it abdomen area was so bloated. i brought it to the vet, it may be liver problem or right heart hypertrophy. However as it is still relative active, most prob it will be liver problem.. the vet used a needle to drain out most of the liquid and put it on medications (diuretic) to allow removal of water. I got to fed it 2x a day, luckily mei mei helped me to feed it yesterday when i was busy with tkd. Thanks mei mei!!

The vet says it's hard to diagnose unless we can do a blood test, however, sucha small animal, it is hard to get enough blood for the somplete test. to do a liver tissue check, it will be costly and not wise for small animals. The day at vet cost me $70/=.. haiz... money money.. but now binny is recovering well, it is not lnger so bloasted..

Well, now i gotta go out and meet yi for lunch.. tata.. will send an email to prof tonight!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

tAke my H@Nd; and GUiDe me through*

Tuesday, July 04, 2006
3:49 PM

to be fair.. i hv always been complaining bout wen zai nui nai as and when he make me angry.. but i seemed not to have written anything that i made him fed up...

haha... well, human nature.. it's always easy to put the blame on others.. =P

Last friday, papa, mamee, wen zai nui nai and me went out shopping. We first went to settle some cpf stuff, i went with papa while wznn and mamee waited in the car. Now i know singpass is so very important.. because papa forgot his singpass, we had to queue up for so long before we can get a new one.. alamak..

Done with getting cpf statement, wznn drove to his appointment at SGH while the three of us went chinatown shopping. We each ate a big bowl of bah-chor-mee.. the fishball were big and juicy.. it's a teochew fishball noodle stall at the pearl center.. yummy yummy!! Satisfied with the noodles in the stomach, mamee wanted to go shopping for a big. So while papa waited for us at the "garden" (an area where old ppl can sit just outside the shopping center.. oops.. i am not saying papa is old har...), mamee and i went in to shop. After much discussion, mamee finally bought a Guy-L (dunno how to spell) bag.. it was 50% discount at the price of $99.00 since it was the last of the two pieces in this series. I won;t bear to buy lor.. but since mamee likes it and she dun really always go shopping, let her buy lor..

After shopping, wznn had also finished his apptm, so we went over to IKEA for more shopping. Finally at 8.30pm, then we were staisfied at what was bought.. and thus made our way to Tampines mall to meet mamee's friend to collect her trousers for the new job.
We had dinner at the restaurant. So long i have not been to TM.. majority din change, only that the 4th floor has quite a number of restaurant now. I was so full that i din finish my sphaggttie.. haha.. feel like a pig after eating so much for the day.

We went home after dinner and start to assemble the clothes drawer, mirror and clothes rack. I bought a clothes rack too (though mummy complained it was a bit too big, but the wheels are nice and smooth).

At midnight, wznn sent me home as the next day we will have to attend the coaching course.

The next day, i had a horrible stomach upset.. i felt like vomitting and kept having diahhorea... upon self-diagnose, we think that it was stomach flu. Throughout the whole afternoon, i was praying that i won't need to go toilet.. haha.. luckily there was only once, but it was during break time. We bought bread from the "antique" bakery along whampoa after the course.. wznn's brown sugar bread and the bottle of kaya was found missing yesterday (2 days after buying). I wonder if it was me who left it in the car or his parents finished it... haha.. gotta remind him to check later.

Despite the bad tummy that day, i still can eat "zhu-zhar-tang" pig organ soup from my fav stall in 38wang for the late dinner at 9pm. *Tsk *Tsk Due to early tuition class on sun, wznn had to send me home fast.. and he even parked his car just to send me up to my door step.. haha.. a bit not use to it.

The next day, after i ended my tuition at 12.30pm, i was surprised by wznn sitting at the tuition center lobby waiting for me!! usually he will reach after my class ends to pick me up at the passenger stand, but today, he made the effort to wake up early and really "wait" for me. Now my students really believe that my collegue, Mr Teo is not my boyfriend... been trying to convince them for the past half a year.. finally it's done!

Now i got to return to my readings before i fall asleep again.. tata!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*