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Friday, September 02, 2005
12:30 AM

monday, 29th august:

i went home straight after school at 10am... was feeling very bored and wondering if i should go for a run... as i was on the bus, i saw a number of bad hair ends.. and so i got off at heartland mall.. went to the hairdresser and got myself some hair cut.. rather... i din cut much, just some trimming and the hair stylist, Ben, curl my hair ends for me... haha... look real old with wavy hair... nvm.. it was just a temp one as it was blown by hair dryer...
after 1.5hr at the hairdresser's, i went home and eat my maggie mee and do some readings... at 3.15pm.. i got up and went to national library just to photocopy some readings from Tso Chuan for Chinese Heritage module...

wow.. new national library is real huge... i almost got heart attack when travelling up and down the lifts that overlooks bugis street nearby.. haha... very nice place to hang out after school... new hang out!

yah.. at 5+ i then took train down to tampinese to meet yp and shanwen after their work.. i waited almost 1hr for them before they reached the interchange.. but meanwhile, i did my shopping and got myself a pair of big earrings.. haha... i decided to put them on immediately to show yp..

when i met them at 969 berth, u should see yp's face.. so amused by my "new" look.. the hair cut was not so obvious (of course, i did trimming only), but the earrings and my tank top made me look like a real uni student.. well normally, i am a secondary look-alike student mah...
we went yishun to hv dinner before yp sent me home... heard tat danny had some prob with his fyp.. hopefully he will get it straightened out soon!

tuesday, 30th august:

school as per normal.. taekwondo also.. nothing much to say... there was plenty of stuff to learn to teach.. hmm..

wednesday, 31st august:

had my 1st chinese heritage tutorial.. met my new project group.. the leader was not so bad looking.. quite handsome actually.. sporty sporty one.. but just see see and full stop la.... haha...
after school, went tkd at clementi ite.. had a talk with xj and sir.. just realised tat i forgot to tell J sir tat i was not free to go RTC for past 2 weeks... so i got his number from xj and gave him a call to apologise... luckily.. not too bad ending..

i talked with yp late into the night.. he quitted his job coz the manger or supervisor was too cocky and irrational.. whatever la.. up to yp to choose.. of course in due time, when it's time for him to get an perm job, he should know what to and what not to do, as he claimed so.. just believe now lor.. truth will be out when the time comes.. hmm..
one will never know what will happen in the future hur..

during the same call, we had some heated argument over some issues.. wwll.. maybe i should learn how not to take ppl's comment too seriously.. but it just hurts so much that he couldn't get along with them...

i hate it when ppl think lowly of him.... he went to work just becoz he dun wan me to say that he's useless.. i was really touched that he do take my thoughts seriously.. but when he quitted, i can't say much.. his choice.. money was not the issue yet...

i agree that he's one who is easily agitated.. but when 2 comets come.. they burn even more fierce.. with a record, just like how japan had to declare all their military power after WWII, ppl judge...

i disagree tat i'm victimised.. u gotta see the other side of him.. yes, i accepted the fact tat he's not very good at keeping cool.. but it does not mean tat i'm bullied.. i dun argue back in times of anger coz i dun wan to hv to eat back my words as often in anger, i tend to be too emtional to be logical... therefore, shout all u wan at me, vent ur anger on me... but make sure u dun walk away till u heard what i hv to say... and excatly that's how me and him handle...
it's like, a metal ball burning.. if u add more oil.. it will burn brighter.. but when u wait for the fire to cease before putting oil to polish it.. it shines...

i hv seen for myself the change in him... in the past, when we quarrel, his temper rise unlimitedly.. now, yes we do still quarrel, he do still get angry, but not as bad as before.. less than 3 sentences, his temper will go down... yes, loud as he might be.. but hv u ever seen the tenderness after the fire? nevertheless, he is just as blunt as can be... he needs to be more hypocrite like the rest of us to survive peacefully...

i am sorry dear... for the 6 days a week of tkd and not spending more time with u before ur enlistment.. but there is a must for me to uptake the job... i hv a rsponsibility to fulfil, to my coach, to my students., to myself.... i know u are worried that i will be too tired.. i dun lie.. yes i am tired, but i will take care of myself esp, while u are not around.. dun worry..

i know from ur face, when each time u see a new wound or bruise i obtained, that u felt useless that u allowed me to be hurt.. i know u had been so angry with yourself each time i got injured, but really dear.. i had lived with it for so many years tat now, i felt so pampered by u.. not that i dun like it.. i do.. but please don't feel too responsible... i too, felt useless when each time i fail to bring forth to ppl how great u are to me... i can only tell u bout the gratitude i have for the omipotent power because he gave me to u..

1st september:

happy teachers' day!!
i received the very 1st teachers' day present from a 4 yr old boy, jimmy, from buangkok class... so sweet of him.. i was really very touched.. hee.. the figurine was a real beauty.. i must not forget the little presents to the children for children's day!

after sch, i was supposed to meet yp in orchard, but just before he came out of his place, his dog shited in the kitchen.. he had no choice but to clear and scrub the kitchen, thus unable to meet me in town.. so we decided to meet at my place instead.. now i felt so silly to hv showed him the unhapy attitude that he didn't go orchard with me as he did got ready to go out early to wait for me... just his luck tat ding dang defecat last minute.. i wasn't logical....
well.. but luckily, yp didnt took it to heart my tantrum that was uncalled for... thank you dear....

gotta go sleep now... going kent ridge walk for pract tml...oops.. i dun hv insect repellant.. die again lor...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*